For now I’ve chosen to go with Adult Friend Finder, Red Hot Pie and RSVP . I figure that the wider I cast the more likely I am to find some decent men. One of the emails I’ve received from these new profiles is very intriguing, this guy’s profile says stuff like:

‘Let me take you to heaven! A journey to fulfillment.”

He goes on to describe himself as

‘ Attractive, intelligent and well traveled. I am an athletic sexy guy who is extremely well endowed and experienced. I guarantee to make you squirt!”

Squirt? What on earth does that mean? I wondered. ‘Perhaps it’s just another name for an orgasm’, I decided. I’m certainly intrigued by this guy. His photo’s show a really great body and his cock is HUGE – a bit scary really. Not sure I can handle that, I sure am willing to give it a go though -:)

So after a few messages and general chit chat – I’ve set up a meeting with ‘Jason’- it’s tomorrow!

I can’t wait!

All that is going to have to end because I’ve found out some rather disturbing facts about the sexy, seemingly normal, Steven.

Yesterday my friend Suzie came over, and I was showing her the various internet dating sites I’ve come across (RSVP , Adult FriendFinders & Redhotpie etc). Including the one with Steven’s picture on it.

It turns out she actually knows him! Boy does he have a rather murky past. Apart from heavy drug use and a history of violence, It seems that he had an 18 month long homosexual relationship not too long ago, and has been trying desperately to become ‘respectable’ by finding a woman he can ‘get it up’ with! All to look good with the family courts when his custody battle finally gets to the court.

No wonder he was flaccid! Boy am I glad to have found this out. It wasn’t me – it was him.

So that’s the end of the ‘Steven’ episode. I won’t be seeing that one again if I can help it.

NEXT!

Leading up to it, I was so terrified, I called my best friend Stacey for a bit of a pep talk. I was so scared that I wouldn’t know what to do or how to handle it if he made a pass at me. Stacey managed to calm me down, and boost my confidence.

We went out for a meal at one of the local restaurants, the conversation flowed just as easily as it did the first time we met. Slowly I started to relax and feel more confident about the whole situation. As we were eating our desert, I noticed something a bit strange, Steven’s hands seemed to be shaking! I suddenly realised that he must be as nervous as I!

After dinner, we went for a walk along the beach, it was a beautiful night and not too cold for a stroll. Steven took me by the hand, and I started to wonder where this was going to lead. I knew where I wanted it to go – to my bedroom! I invited him for ‘coffee’ he seemed reluctant at first, but agreed.

When we finally did get back to my place, it became clear that if anything was going to happen – it was going to have to be up to me. Steven seemed terrified – and when I asked him, he explained that he hadn’t been with a woman for nearly a year! (‘I can fix that’ – I thought).

So in the end it was me that made the pass at him. Not at all what I expected. We made out on the couch like a couple of teenagers – wow that feeling of kissing a man I like for the first time — unbelievably sexy and such a turn on!. Eventually, I took him by the hand and led him into my bedroom we slowly undressed each other and lay down on the bed naked. Slowly he caressed my body, with slow sensuous strokes, working up to a fever pitch. I started to touch feel his body slowly working my way down his body, I was exulting in this wonderful feeling of being with a new man for the first time, totally ready for anything that was to come next.

As I moved my hand down to his cock, I discovered the unbelievable. he was completely flaccid! I couldn’t believe it! I don’f think he could either, I did my very best to get him as turned on as I. I used my hands, my fingers – even my mouth. All to no avail!

I was SO disappointed, completely turned on , hot wet and ready — and there was no way it was going to happen. Eventually Steven left and I was left with no alternative but to get my toys out and attempt to satisfy myself.

So, sex on the first date? I BLOODY WISH.

Well! I had my first official ‘date’ as a single woman today. I met ‘Steven’ for coffee at a great little cafe near the waters edge. His photo certainly didn’t do him justice – dark hair, great body and really sexy eyes. He sure is HOT!

I was very nervous and he seemed to be also, as it turned out we got along remarkably well! We have many things in common and we chatted away for at least an hour before heading off for a walk along the beach.

The Chemistry between us is certainly sizzling! After the initial ‘getting to know you’ stuff had been dealt with, the flirtatious remarks and eye contact was getting us both rather hot under the collar!

We’ve made another time for us to get together – this time we’ve arranged an evening ‘date’, we’re going out to dinner tomorrow night!

Although extrememly nervous of where this is likely to lead, I’m looking forward to it too.

So, I am awaiting the next installment of this adventure with bated breath……..

There was one email and profile that caught my almost immediately. This guy was HOT!! His email was intelligent witty and charming and his photo…well it sure had my heart racing. Dark, handsome, well dressed with a cheeky smile!

So I replied to ‘Steven’ and we’ve set a date to meet for coffee. I’m really nervous about it, I’ve not done anything like this for so long I almost feel like I’ve forgotten how!!

Recently separated woman, 39, looking for fun and friendship. Not looking for a serious relationship right now, however I am open to anything……

Of course I’ve added the obligatory ‘what I like to do bits’ along with my vital statistics and a photo.

The response to this has been rather overwhelming and so FAST. It seems there are thousands of people out there searching for ………. ‘love’ (?).

Yet the one of the main drawbacks I’ve instantly found is the lack of physical intimacy and more importantly SEX! Being a very sensual woman who needs a lot of sex and physical stimulation, I’ve noticed the lack almost immediately! I’ve been thinking carefully about how I’m going to deal with it. Several choices are fairly obvious, and most of them mean wasting a lot of time and energy, not to mention venturing into places I don’t like all that much.

I’m not the sort who enjoys going to bars or nightclubs (unless it’s to dance the night away). Also the men at those sorts of places tend to be too young or too drunk for a woman like me. Another consideration is that, as much as I LOVE sex, it’s not usually enough for it just to be a physical encounter- I prefer for it to be more than that. I prefer someone who I can connect with, talk to a little, enjoy their company ….before we have wild passionate sex!!

So as an internet savvy person, I’ve realized pretty quickly that the best way for me to fulfill my desires is to look online. So here I go…….

Married to the man of my dreams turned into a nightmare, and after being a faithful wife for 18 years (to 2 different husbands), I decided it was time to ‘play the field’. So I entered the amazing world of internet dating, sex sites and started to collect lovers friends and interesting experiences.